No time to dwell on the previous post. I am spending tonight with the kiddos.
First, the little kiddo and I are watching The Muppets Christmas Carol. A classic. While watching, we will be dinning on hot dogs and french fries and making Christmas cookies.
They older kiddo is at a basketball function. When he gets back, we will be watching a very important film, Schindler’s List. This film was released 25 years ago. I was in middle school and we went to see it on a field trip that I will never forget. I anticipate questions and discussions.
Today I ate lunch alone. I went to Panera, ordered, and sat down at the window. I enjoy eating lunch in solitude from time to time. There’s no one trying to talk to you while you have you mouth full of food. But today was different. Instead for solitude, I was alone.
Being alone is odd in that, no matter how long I am alone, I never seem to get used to it or feel comfortable with it. Right now, that is a big part of my depression.
When I go out to lunch in a public place alone, I do that for the chance of meeting someone new that I’ll fall in love with. It’s the same idiotic romantic crap that I’ve seen a million times in movies. Truly, I blame the film industry for that dopey idea.
I still hold out hope of finding someone. The hope that I am hold seems to get smaller and smaller though.
I usually post happy and motivational stuff, but I had this going on and I needed to get it out.
If you’re going through something, put it out there and don’t hold onto it. Write about it, talk to someone, but don’t let it fester.