I eat alone a lot apparently. I’m dining at one of my favorite restaurant with one of my favorite bartenders. I haven’t sat down at a bar for dinner in a very long time, but I figured that I need to get out and see people.
I guess it’s a desperate attempt to find someone new. At least the potato soup is good.
I can’t help but think
There is someone out there now
Wanting to love me.
I’m trying to stop looking for someone and just let life happen and that person find me, but I can’t help focus on the love that I pray will be.
One day Billy.
(There’s no one named Billy. It’s an inside joke.)
Back again. Same restaurant, same club sandwich, same famous honey mustard. I am sitting alone pondering the wonders of the universe. I’m not getting too far pondering the universe, but there is something to be said for being able to walk into a restaurant and not even having to order. It’s nice to be known.
Right now, I’m trying to make a major decision. Do I hold out for an apartment that I want, or just go ahead and take one that is so-so. Here’s the situation. I have been with family members and I am about to lose it. I have learned that I cannot live with anyone that is passive aggressive ever.
I have very few options in town. I have found two places. One is so-so within my price range and the other is amazing and a little above my price range. The so-so apartment is available right now, but the apartment that I really, really, really want will be ready in about June.
Do I stick it out with the passive aggressive smokers (I have just stopped smoking and it’s killing me) or do I hang on for the apartment I love?
It’s Wednesday. That means we are almost through the week, and I’m sure some people at my office will be saying that it’s “Hump Day” in an obnoxious voice. I will grab my coffee and just smile. I will try to keep the eye rolling to a minimum.
Whatever you do, please enjoy.
Solitude…
I’m getting sick of it. It is time to find someone new.
I refuse to go for reruns. Relationships that I have already been in. I know I can’t go back to those. I would rather stay alone.
