The Dreaded Resolutions

New Years

It is now time to begin thinking about those dreaded resolutions. The resolutions that I am gung-ho about in January. By March, those resolutions are a vague memory. I kept one from last year. I have taken time, usually in the morning, and I find things in my life that I am thankful for. Taking just a small moment out of my day to focus on gratitude has helped a lot. I honestly think this is the only resolution I have EVER kept.

Now, I am coming up with my list for 2019.

  1. Find a new job. I need to find something in which I make a little more money. I can’t seem to find anything outside of social services. As a single mother, I need to be able to provide for the kiddos and social services is just not doing the job.
  2. Find a new relationship. I need to start dating and getting out into the real world.
  3. Write more.
  4. Stop smoking. I have talked about this previously, but I have not started that journey yet.
  5. Start running again. I loved it and I need to start getting back to things that I loved in the past.
  6. Take better care of myself. No explanation needed for this one.

We’ll see how all of these are going in March. Don’t be surprised if I delete this post and deny these resolutions ever existed.

 

Regrets

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The question of the day today from Dream Big, Dream Often was about regret. We all have regrets in our lives.

Regrets eat at you and attempts to tear you down. Sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.

I hope that each of you out there find someway to let go of those regrets. Someway to stop the demolition and work to build yourself up.

For me, I have to keep telling myself that my missteps and mistakes are made for a reason. Some of the best things in my life come from zigging and not zagging. This works for me, but if it works for use, by all means use it.

Until next time …

Home at last

There’s nothing like walking through the front door after a looooooooooong day at work. It’s the ex’s day with the kiddos and I have no where to run. No practice, no sports game, no service work, no nothing.

I think a nice dinner is in order.

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Then some writing.

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Binge watching Hulu.

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A glass of red.

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Then bed.

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Sometimes, you have to slow down and enjoy solitude.

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I’ll be back later tonight.

Fear conquered

I’ve been gone for a while, but I’m back. I have a lot of stuff to put out here, but I will start with my wonderful experience with the organization, Over the Edge.

Over the Edge is an organization that truly gets people to step outside their comfort zones and helps non-profits raise money in a very unique way. I will leave the website here.

Home

I am not good with heights. Well, that may be understating that a bit. I HHHHAAAATTTTEEEE heights!!!!!! There, that’s better.

I made a decision to face my fear and to rappel five stories. Some might think that’s not a lot, but some might be wrong when your are walking down the side of a five story building.

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Sure, I’m smiling, but don’t let the smile fool you. About a minute before this photo was taken, I was trying to figure out a way to get out of this without losing face. As you can see, I had not come up with anything.

When you force yourself out of your comfort zone and do something that terrifies you, and you come out on the other end, you have an amazing sense of pride. In the initial moments of fear and panic, that pride seems so far away. That nagging voice in the back of your mind can be so loud. You need to shut that voice up, put your big-girl panties on, and go for it.

What are your fears that need to be conquered? What are you doing to conquering those fears? What is keeping you from feeling that pride?

My hope is that everyone is able to get outside the dreaded comfort zone, and try something new and to be able to look in the mirror and say, “Damn, I’m freaking awesome!!!”

Until next time …