It’s been a while since blogging but I’m back. There have been sooo many changes with me. Not really. I’m still unable to find love and keep making the same mistakes with the same guy. Sigh
I did change my hair color so that’s new. I plan on blogging several times a day for right now. I find that it helped me and my writing. And I just enjoyed it.
I plan on covering just that, stuff I enjoy. Stuff that makes me happy and my new adventures. I’m also going to talk about my depression, my kiddos, being a single parent, living on a farm, cooking, dating, etc…
I’m glad to be back and I look forward to getting back to writing. Until next time…
I won’t lie, it’s tough. I just realized that just recently. Well, it was more like a kick in the teeth. Someone that I was seeing broke it off with me. His reasoning was the real reason it feels like a kick in the teeth. He wasn’t comfortable with me having kiddos.
Well, I was completely honest from the get go. I didn’t have the kiddos hiding in the bushes getting ready to jump out and ambush him. He knew I had kiddos from the very beginning.
Also, he was not close to meeting my kiddos. Yes, we were seeing each other and went on vacation together, but our relationship was not to that point. He could have asked, but did not.
Be on guard when new people are coming into your life. Make sure you are honest from the start and let that person know that your children will always come first.
If you are rejected because you have kiddos, breathe. They are losing out on amazing people. There is someone out there for you and someone who will think your kiddos hung the moon.
The little kiddo’s surgery went great and the post-op videos are priceless. She said that she was feeling drunk because her grandfather, who is a T-Totaler, dared her to drink four beers. She said the beers were yummy and asked if she could have beer for lunch. Coming from a small child who had just had surgery, it was hilarious.
For the next foreseeable while, I will be with my kiddo while she heals. I will be enjoying the slow down in my schedule and I will enjoy sitting with the kiddo and binge watching as many Disney movies as possible.
I was asked this morning by my youngest kiddo how I was able to get up so early in the morning. “I just do” was the best answer I had at the moment.
After dropping off kiddo #1 and kiddo #2 at school, I thought about what a shitty answer I gave my kiddo. “I just do” is not an answer. It was me rushing to get out the door and get them to school and myself to work.
I am by nature a night owl and will stay up until 11:00 pm or midnight. I then go to sleep and wake up at 5:00 am. It seems some mornings that I jump out of bed at 5:00 am as though I’m leaping into action.
This morning, I should have said, “Kiddo, I feel drive and motivation. I have goals to meet throughout my day and I begin to focus on them at 5:00 am. When you have something you want in life, you need to work towards it, and that starts the second you wake up”. I want my children to see me as motivated, not rushed. Driven, not busy.